Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I went back to have another US today. Both the tech and my doctor wanted to make sure that both Juan and I saw the heartbeat. They wanted us to feel good about things going into this long road we have ahead of us. It was the most wonderful sound!!! Noodle's little heart was flickering away at 133bpm. My first thought was it's a little boy and then I remembered that none of my kids have followed the fast/slow measurements. I am for TEAM ALIVE and I do not care what gender this little one turns out to be. It was so amazing the definition of this little one at such an early gestation. We could see small movements and that little heart was amazing! I def. feel like I have been put at ease for at least a few days anyway!!!
Monday, September 27, 2010
Today was my first visit to my OB since my follow appt after I lost Juanito. I was a nervous wreck and I didn't know how I was going to react. They were so good to take me back almost immediately. All the nurses were well aware of my history (even the new ones) They were just awesome. Dr. H was even more amazing. He spent well over the scheduled time with us answering our questions and just talking. After the I finished with him they took me back for an US. Dr. H even stepped in and watched with us. You could see a nice big sac and a perfectly sized fetal pole. The tech. said she was able to see the little flicker of the HB on there, but the US wouldn't pick it up, so they asked my if I would come back in a week to show me the HB. I of course said yes. It was so nice to go in and be treated like a person and not just be pitied because I lost a baby. I am so glad I pushed all the feelings I had about returning and decided to go back to Dr. H. I think this is going to turn out to be an amazing experience!!!
Well I have been extremely nervous about all everything that is going on and Dr. H can't get me in until next week, so I called my family physician and scheduled an US for today. I just wanted to make sure there was a sac. My appointment was at 4:00pm and it was pure torture waiting to go to AF Hospital. Finally the time came fro me to head to the hospital. I got there and the orders had not arrived. I had to sit there for another 30 minutes and wait until the orders finally came through. I was so nervous by the time I went back I thought I was going to have a panic attack right then and there. The tech was super nice and she said she saw a sac immediately when she placed the probe on my stomach. She said she would have to do a vaginal US to get accurate measurements, but I didn't care. Sure enough there was a nice round sac that measured 5.4 weeks. Right on track! We weren't able to see a fetal pole yet, but that wasn't a surprise considering I was so early. I am just thankful that everything is looking just like it should.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
This morning I woke up and realized I should have started my period today and there was nothing. I had my progesterone levels drawn before we left for Oregon in July and it was 1.7. I was told that there was now way I had ovulated so Juan and I went to Oregon and figured we would make an appointment with my doctor when we got back and discuss our options. We had decided that Clomid had not helped us with the fertility issues the past few months and we wanted to just leave it in God's hands. Well when there was no spotting what so ever I decided to take a test. Of course I had a few left over from the devistating months prior. When I saw what looked like a faint second line I began shaking and tears were streaming down my face. I just sat there in the bathroom in shock for what seemed like hours. I called my doctor's office and asked if I could come in and take a test there. Of course it was positive. I again began bawling. I decided to call Juan and ask him if I could come and eat lunch with him. I bought a beautiful box and filled it with little baby trinkets. When I pulled up to the gas station to pick him up I couldn't stand it and I gave him the box immediately. He opened it and then gave me a huge hug. I can't believe that we have yet again been blessed with another baby. This has been such a long hard road and now all we can do is leave it in God's hands.